Who am I?
Hey! So, well, here you are… and I’m “PonderingPadawan” – a crazy cat lady and an introvert, insanely Swedish (although I try my best not to be), who loves travelling, photography, writing, and cuddling with animals. I’m in my prime, you know, 50 any day now… Life just keeps on keeping on!
Ever since the birth of blogs I’ve wanted to keep a blog, because I love writing, but I’ve never managed to keep one going. Never really found my niche, so when I was blogging it was mostly travel diaries, or anecdotes from back when I lived in Nepal and Thailand. Crazy times, and interesting culture shocks; and at the same time it gave me somewhere to show my photos.
All my more serious attempts with blogging just simply fell flat, though. I didn’t want to write mainstream stuff, didn’t want to do trivial travel posts. Neither did I want to become some influencer, doing the same things and taking the same photos as all the other influencers out there, someone showing their photos in a clean feed, where everything looks the same…
The mainstream girl wasn’t me! No, I am unique (of course – INFJ!), I want to write about deeper stuff, but did someone actually want to read that?
What can you find on my blog?
Everything I overthink, everything on my pondering mind, a complete mess: personal development, mental/physical health, introversion, animals, and other important questions in life. And a lot of photos!
What makes life worth living?
But of course, travel! Travelling is an enormously huge (you see, can’t stress it enough, right?) part of my life, so you’ll find a lot of travel posts. No typical travel posts though, but my usual rants. All my overthinking about the places I’ve seen. Travel memories will also arise, and anecdotes about the differences between travelling as a 20-year-old during the ’90s vs travelling now – as a full-grown woman!
I believe everything happens for a reason… and everything is what it is…
PonderingPadawan’s tagline was “get off the hamster wheel” but I’m past that now. When I started my blog I was still surrounded by a constant whining; there I was – running, never getting anywhere. Just recently changed the tagline to “master of overthinking” because this is what I do – constantly overthinking.
For me, it’s important to be open about the fact that life isn’t always 100%, and that is as should be.
Maybe my words can shed some light in your darkness, help you find your way home. Lessen your loneliness…
My goal with this blog is not a glorious: “I want to help you”, because I can with all certainty not help you. Buddha once said: “We can only help ourselves.”
But what I do want is to write about my personal journey – the one I’m on with both my soul and my physical body, and hope I can reach you, hope that you can relate and be inspired.
I want to inspire you, to get you to let out everything you hide inside… Just let it go…
The photographs you see here on PonderingPadawan are my own. I might share some random memes, that are not my own, but apart from that everything is mine.
So, where did that name come from? I don’t even remember when I came up with it, but it was a while back. For those of you who don’t have English as a Mother tongue (I surely don’t) Pondering means “to think really hard” and that’s what I do. Thinking, contemplating, reflecting, searching and basically overthinking EVERYTHING… Before I understood I’m an INFJ, I thought there was something wrong with me.
But there wasn’t, you see! We are all different, as is our processing…
And padawan – well, that’s a Jedi apprentice, every sci-fi fan knows that 😉 and since I’m me, I see myself as an apprentice of life. According to me, we are all here to learn. Something. What that is, well, that’s totally different depending on your soul… but I believe it’s all about improvement and moving on to your next lesson and eventually your next life.
Yes, I believe in reincarnation. Always have. But I’ve got my own idea. For me, there is no Nirvana, enlightenment is the reward, although I haven’t really figured out what I believe will happen once you’ve reached the final stage. Do you ever?
My favourite motto is the Japanese saying: Shikata ga nai – which means “it is what it is” – like there’s nothing you can do about it. You can interpret and twist everything to your liking, and to me, this saying is in complete harmony with my view on life, or rather my view on destiny.
Everything is predetermined, it is what it is… But you can influence your destiny… so don’t just sit there at home… Go out and do your thing! Be real!
I welcome you to PonderingPadawan – I hope you’ll stay a while! <3