Who am I?

Hey there, fellow wanderer! I’m PonderingPadawan—crazy catlady, introvert, and an unapologetically female wandering soul from Sweden, passionate about animals, exploration, photography, and writing. Just passed the magical age of 50, and my adventure in this enigmatic maze, which is life, just gets more interesting! Imagine that! Life just keeps on keeping on…

For years, I struggled to find my place in the world of blogging. I love to write, but I didn’t really find myself fitting in with the influencer crowd. I love to travel so writing about travel seemed a no-brainer, but travel guides? Not my style. I crave depth, real connection, and honesty about life’s ups and downs. I want to write about the meaning of life, those inner parts that noone really dares to talk about.

So, after a lot of overthinking (because that’s what I do), I decided to embrace my overthinking and give my thoughts a voice of their own. Whatever that voice would be…

What will you find here?

This blog is my little sanctuary where I share whatever’s on my mind—travel, personal growth, spiritual journeys, reincarnation and destiny, introversion, mental and physical well-being, and life after narcissistic abuse. Yes, I walk that path too, and it’s been a seemingly never-ending journey of rediscovery and healing. I know how dark and lonely that road can be, but I also know there’s light to be found here and there, and at the end (if you ever reach the end!), and I’m here to share what I’ve learned along the way and maybe be the light for someone else.

Travel is a huge part of my life, but as mentioned above, I’m not your typical travel blogger. Instead I write about the deeper connections I’ve made with places and people (and animals), reflections on how travel shaped my soul, and memories of wandering through the world as a younger version of me versus the woman I am today. It’s not just about where I’ve been, but also ponderings about how it’s changed me.

Life lessons from a Padawan

I believe we’re all apprentices of life, here to learn and evolve. That’s where PonderingPadawan comes from—a reminder that I will always be a student, always searching, always growing, which is the meaning itself behind the word Padawan – someone that is not yet a master. However weirdly enough I do consider myself being a master of one domain, right?

The Master of Overthinking!

I believe everything happens for a reason… and everything is what it is…

Life is what it is. My favorite motto, 仕方がない Shikata ga nai—”it is what it is”—grounds me. We can’t control everything, or anything at all to be honest, but we can shape our own destiny by showing up and living from the heart, as authentically as possible. The journey of healing and spiritual awakening is never linear, but each step brings us closer to the truth of who we truly are and who we are meant to be.

BTW – the photos on PonderingPadawan are all my own. There might be a random meme, that is not mine, but apart from that everything here is mine.

So, welcome to my little slice of the universe. I hope my words will make you feel seen, understood, and maybe even inspire you to embrace your own journey. Let’s walk this path together.<3